Chapter 13 - Where doese Timetraveling take you?

Chapter 13

Hut by the sea was a great understatement. It actually was a house with two floors, a large garden and a roof terrace. When we arrived, the sun was still shining brightly and Riku pointed at the gates and the high fence. “Even paparazzi-proof.” He said with a grin and took the bags that he had secretly fetched from mine and his room out of the trunk of his car. “Make yourself home.” He nodded at the entrance door, then at the front-pocket of his shorts. “Can you grab the keys and open?”

I couldn’t help chuckling. This was so him. I did him that little favour and rummaged around the pocket until (among other things) I got hold of the keys and unlocked the front door.

“I’ll set our room and put some stuff into the fridge, why don’t you go upstairs and check out the terrace? I’ll be with you in a minute.” Smiling he cupped the cheeks of my butt with his hands.

I returned his kiss, fighting the urge to grab my mobile, switching it back on and call Samu to simply yell at him. Trying to dispel the bad thoughts, I took off my shoes and rushed upstairs. Some sea view would clear my head and maybe the universe didn’t mean to be cruel. After all Riku had always been a good husband and this time I would prevent him from cheating and maybe safe my life and our relationship with it.

Yanking the large balcony door open, I stepped outside into the soft breeze, breathing deeply.

“I expected you earlier.” A voice suddenly said and I almost jumped out of my skin, looking around the huge terrace.

Samu? My stomach did a quick backflip and I stared at the man that approached me.

He gave me a strange look, folding his arms over his chest. “So?” he simply said, making me narrow my eyes.

So? So, you fucking son of a rat? Completely speechless I stared at him for another brief moment.

“I’ve been waiting for you at the hotel.” He suddenly stated, making me snort.

“Well, technical you haven’t.” I shot back. “There were seven half-naked, half-drunk girls in your room, but I couldn’t find you.”

He let out a little chuckle. “So that’s the way the wind is blowing. And Riku of course took good care of you and kept you company because I am a fucking arsehole, fucking everything female in reach, right?” sarcastically he nodded at me. “What did he tell you, this little fuck?”

“Nothing.” Trying hard to keep a dignified expression. “We didn’t talk about you.”

Samu laughed in surprise, throwing his head back. “Anyway, you are here to spend the night with him instead of me and I would really like to hear your explanation for that.”

“My explanation?” I was fuming all of a sudden, the picture of all the girls in his messed up room still far too close. “You had a little gang-bang last night! And I will not accept this kind of behaviour or resign myself with the fact that you are fucking around!”

“I haven’t touched another woman since you and I…” he fell silent, shaking his head in disbelief. “He didn’t tell you that I shared rooms with Sami last night, did he? Wow.” Samu stepped back, running his fingers through his hair. “We had a party, I don’t deny it, why should I? And then I left my room to those girls and Osmo and I found another place to sleep.” Gritting his teeth he shook his head. “I have been waiting for you, Elena! My balls were aching and I was drunk enough to bang them all last night, but I didn’t! Because I waited for you! Because the only pussy I want is yours, for fucks sake! And now you…” he gestured towards the house in my back. “Now you simply… you let him talk you into this shit and even agree to come here with him for the night?” shaking his head, he looked at me furiously. “I know quite well that he would be the better man for you, the better choice. It drove me mad for the last weeks that he has somehow managed to bond with you, get close with you in his own fucking smart and nice ways, but I never expected that you would fall for shit like that!”

I was speechless. Completely out of words, looking at the ranting man in front of me. This beautiful, wonderful man, my choice in this damn parallel world. I felt guilty for not taking him to task first thing in the morning. For spending the whole day with Riku and agreeing to come here with him as if Samu and our time together had never existed. I felt stupid, guilty and sorry, all at the same time.

“I kissed him.” I heard myself say while I was standing there, looking up at him in complete shock.

Samu groaned in annoyance, rubbing his face with the palms of his hand. 

“Of course you did!” he barked at me. “Because Rajamaa is giving you the lovey-dovey shit and I am the bad, unromantic guy that is unable to keep it in his pants!” Turning away from me, he walked over to a group of chairs by the rim of the terrace.

Without even thinking about it, I followed him, putting my hand on his back, but he moved away.

“Seriously?” he looked down at me with his dark brows furrowed. “Rajamaa gets to first base with you just like that?”

“Well, I assumed that you had a few homeruns yourself last night and I wasn’t in the mood to face you and loose it completely because it hurt so much that I wanted to punch you in your crown jewels!”

“So you simply switch off the phone and hit it off with Rajamaa?” accusingly he pointed at the house again. “You come here to let him fuck you even though you told me only yesterday that you can’t wait to have me back? How’s that even possible?” he shook his head. “I want an answer right now. Are you mine? I never said it would be easy, but if you can look me in the eyes and promise me that you are mine, I am gonna be yours for the rest of my life. But if you only waver for a second, I am done with you.” His eyes had darkened and he even looked dangerous right at this very moment, but I didn’t hesitate.

“It’s you. It has always been you.” I mumbled and tried to swallow down the lump in my throat.

“He might be the better man.” Samu insisted, grabbing my chin to force me to look in his eyes.

“Maybe.” I whispered, trying hard to hold his stare. “But I want you.”

He gave me another intense look, then he stepped back and nodded, still not totally convinced. “If you ever again feel distrust towards anything that happens in my life, come talk to me before you run off and think about letting Rajamaa shag you.” Again he gritted his teeth. “Damn it I can’t believe that he almost… Fuck, Elena, how could you…” he turned his back on me, walking away a few steps.

I couldn’t blame him. He was right! I would have slept with Riku in only a few minutes. I would have done it, believing that it was my destiny, believing that Riku held my future.

Swallowing hard I tried to make up my mind. I would never forgive myself, wondering if Samu would manage. After a deep breath I squared my shoulders.

“Tell me one thing and don’t answer too quickly.” I put my hands on his chest. “Can you forgive me? Can you forgive me that I kissed him, that I almost slept with him because I was so shocked by all those girls in your bed and so unbelievably mad at you? Can you forgive me or will this stand between us from now on? Because if it does, I will right now leave this place, leave Finland and delete both of your phone numbers.”

He squinted, stepping back to look at me closely. For a moment that felt like eternity he fell silent. Then he only nodded without saying a word.

“There is a fire escape over there.” He pointed ahead. “Show daring and good will and climb it down.”

Taken aback I looked up at him, but he simply pointed to his right again. “Climb down.” He demanded and I obeyed without any further comment.

When we reached the ground, he simply grabbed my arm, pulling me along and through the backyard. “My car is parked a few minutes up the beach, move it.”

We walked for a while in complete silence. The house was soon out of sight and it became cold as the sun went down. I shivered mutely, not wanting him to see that I was shaking both from the cold and the churning feelings inside of me.

He suddenly stopped, letting out a breath that he had obviously held for quite some time. Looking closely at me in the dim light of the sunset, he abruptly grabbed my neck.

Shrieking in surprise I tried to remove his hand, but he held onto me firmly, pulling me closer and in the direction of a little bench nearby.

“Your slip.” He simply stated, reaching out his free hand, even shaking me slightly when I didn’t react right away. “Gimme your slip!” he repeated and I obeyed, watching him opening and removing his belt.

“I wish that this would come to use now because I really wanna slap your cute little ass for almost sleeping with Rajamaa.” He said very seriously, slapping his hand with the hard leather before he pulled down his pants and sat down on the bench with me on his lap.

Another small cry escaped my lips and I tried to bite my tongue to prevent myself from making another noise when he pushed himself inside of me forcefully.

Clasping my neck again, he made me look at him while he was moving my hips up and down. It was painful, I wasn’t ready for it and so confused that I was torn between hitting him and crying. I grabbed his arms for balance, trying my best to hold his stare but I didn’t succeed.

Looking at him was impossible right now. Maybe I deserved to be punished for what I had done, but I couldn’t believe that he now in fact punished me by having sex with him.

Grabbing hold of his arm again, I actually felt tears welling up. I couldn’t breathe properly, feeling a lump in my throat. What was this damn universe doing to me?

Samu stopped moving all of a sudden, wrapping his arms around me. With a low sigh he buried his face on my neck. He sat like this without a word, still breathing deep and heavily. When he lifted his head again, he looked up at me, putting his hand on my face.

“I can’t even anger-fuck you.” He whispered. “I am so angry right now, but…” he sighed again, lowering his gaze. “Do you want me to take you back to the house?” he asked hesitantly, softly rubbing my thighs that were still straddling his lap.

I was fighting my tears and shook my head slowly. “No.” I croaked with a lot of effort.

He let his hands travel up to my face and lifted it cautiously to meet my eyes. “I am so angry and jealous and…” he exhaled. “God, Elena.” Shaking his head in disbelief, he pulled me down to rest his lips on my forehead. “I’m so… I’m sunk! I know you didn’t sleep with him, but I feel betrayed by you.” His grip around me tightened.

“I never wanted to feel this way.” He suddenly said in a very low voice. “Never. Not about you or any other person in my life. I never wanted to fall so hard and now you …” When he lifted his head again, his green eyes almost pierced through me, making me feel pain that wasn’t mine deep inside my soul. “And now …” he shrugged pensively, staring down the windy beach.

I felt my legs wrapping themselves around him tightly. “Samu.” I whispered into his ear, shoving his hair back to kiss my way down his neck. My lips caused goose bumps on his skin and I returned his embrace, slowly starting to move my hips again. With my hands in his hair I managed to pull his head back and make him look at me.

“I chose you.” I whispered, kissing his lips to make the sceptical look on his face disappear. “In whatever version of reality, I wanna be yours and only yours.”

“No maybes, no chances!” he demanded, sitting up a little to grab my hips.

“None.” I looked deep into his eyes. “It will always be you.” I promised, hoping against hope that I had finally found my place, my home and my reality with this decision. Somewhere deep inside of me, I was scared that the universe would hit me again and that I would all of a sudden wake up being my old self. Being married to a man that was no more than a fantastic friend, longing for the one man that kept rejecting and hurting me by screwing around.

“I am yours, Samu.” I whispered shakily, burying my face on his neck and praying for the universe to finally cut the crap and stop interfering.

He smiled at me, kissing me keenly. “Now you are.” He whispered back.

Epilogue

Sometimes I wake up during the night, shaking like a leaf. I somehow know that I don’t belong here, don’t belong to this place, this time. And every now and then in the darkest of hours during my nights it freaks me out completely. With my heart pounding in my ears I then stare into nowhere, watching the man by my side sleeping.

I am still here. Still with Samu. And sometimes I find spontaneous refuge in his embrace even though he is asleep.

But I’m afraid, I don’t belong here.

And maybe some random day, I will disappear as unexpectedly as I had once appeared. Another accident maybe. Or maybe I will simply wake up again one morning and find myself back home. Another home. A good one perhaps, but not the place where my heart belongs.

With a throbbing somewhere in the pit of my stomach I listen to the silence around me. Samu is deep asleep, I can clearly hear his steady and slow breathing. I’m still here.

Carefully I cuddle closer to his warm shoulder and shut my eyes firmly.

I’m still here …

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The End

Chapter 12 - Where does Timetraveling take you?

Chapter 12

Wow. Looking around the huge mess I shook my head in disbelieve. Three on the bed, two on the couch, one in the shower and blondie standing right in front of me. Samu definitely knew how to party.

Slowly I started walking backwards, feeling my guts churn.

So this was him on tour. Right, I should have known that waiting for me would look like that in the special case of Samu Haber.

Our last phone call came to my mind. We had been so close, intimate for over an hour. God, it had been the best sex on the phone ever and now… Obviously it had not been enough for him.

Not wanting to wait for him and Tamea to exit the shower, I turned on my heels and left.

I only put my stuff into the room I would be sharing with Anna, even considering to leave right away and tell Samu to go fuck himself. Then I went downstairs again, feeling dumb, numb and somehow ridiculous.

Riku was smiling at me from afar, raising a paper coffee mug. “Are you in for a little stroll?” He asked enthusiastically and I nodded right away.

Distraction. Give me distraction or I will fall apart in no more than a second.

He guided me outside and through the hotel park. “Little walk along Vantaanjoki river for you?”

I nodded silently, my hands grasping the coffee mug for support.

Riku was quick to wrap his arm around my shoulders and softly rubbed my upper arm. “Everything alright with you?” he asked carefully and gave me a sweet smile.

I tried to return it and wrapped my arm around his waist.

Riku. My safe choice.

Sighing I looked into his beautiful eyes. Maybe this was again the universe kicking my ass. I lowered my gaze but Riku softly took my face by the chin to make me look up again.

“Are you alright?” he asked with his soothingly deep voice and I fought back my tears, nodding quickly.

“I’m good.” I whispered, resting my face on his neck when he pulled me in for a hug. “I’m good.” I repeated, feeling his hand rubbing my back.

“I’m glad you came.” He murmured into my ear and the familiarity of his smell took me completely off guard.

What on earth had I been thinking?

This was my place, my husband to be. Trustworthy, loving and caring.

Sighing lowly, I put my hand on his cheek the way I had done it for so long. I tried to smile, but somehow it didn’t work. “Let’s walk for a bit, alright?” I said and he nodded quickly, putting his hand over mine before he turned his head slightly to kiss my palm like he always did when my hand was on his face.

Smiling he ran his fingers through my hair. “Come on, let me show you around, the city has some places I really wanna show you.”

Breathing in and out a few times I nodded, quickly taking my mobile out of my pocket to turn it off. “No distractions.” I said seriously and he nodded immediately, switching off his own phone.

“No distractions.” He agreed, pulling me in for another hug before he took my hand. “Now come with me.”

After two hours of walking and talking and an early lunch, we were still strolling around Helsinki. He took me to several wonderful old bookstores, the river and a little Whiskey-museum. Before I even realized it properly, it was early evening and I had spent one of the most amazing days with the man I had once been in love with.

Even though my heart was still hurting and in some way my brain even refused to only think about Samu, I couldn’t help touching Riku’s cheek when we stood together on one of the city’s old bridges, talking about the history of a certain part of town.

My smart, beautiful husband to be. Returning his gaze, I tried to smile. He smiled back at me warmly, carefully wrapping his arms around my waist to move closer. I was standing with my back to the rim of the bridge, unexpectedly feeling pushed up against the warm stones when Riku bent down to kiss me.

God, he was such a great kisser!

My arms were wrapped tightly around his neck on their own accord and I kissed him. Voluntarily. And even deep and passionate.

And it felt unexpectedly good. Familiar. Safe.

Not as passionate and wild as Samu’s kiss maybe, but then again…

A bird in the hand is worth two in the bush, right?

He didn’t stop kissing me eagerly, apparently hungry and excited about the fact that he had finally made his move towards me after giving little hints and flirting for the last weeks.

“I have a surprise for you.” He suddenly whispered without taking his lips off mine. “Actually we wanted to take you girls there tomorrow but what about you and I having some private time without the others?”

Not feeling like going back to the hotel and maybe run into Samu and one of the girls of his gang-bang, I nodded immediately. “What is it?” I whispered out of breath, running my fingers through his hair.

He smiled and kissed me again before he took a little key out of the pocket of his short. “A hut by the sea.” His eyes were sparkling with the afternoon sun. “Why don’t we take my car and go there for the night?”

Again I simply nodded. Go fuck up my life, universe. If this is the right thing to do, I will make the best of it. Time for dreams and the big butterflies is over.

I took Riku’s hand. “Take me there.” I heard myself say.

Chapter 11 - Where does Timetraveling take you?

Chapter 11

It was only half past ten in the morning when we arrived at the hotel in Helsinki where Sunrise Avenue had settled down for a week before continuing their tour around Finland and Norway.

Totally excited I ran into Sami that was already waiting for us at the reception. He didn’t waste a second and simply took Anna’s suitcase to take her to his room right away. A little lost I was standing in front of the large table, waiting for the receptionist to check me and my sister in.

“Hei!” an arm was wrapped around me from behind and I felt my heart jump when Riku happily kissed my cheek.

“Hei.” I managed to mumble back, feeling my cheeks blushing because I was in absolute “fuck me right there and then”- mode already.

Obviously my desire was noticeable. Riku’s eyes suddenly became darker and he gave me another tight hug.

“D’you wanna get some coffee?” he ran his fingertips down my spine and I felt a little shiver because all I could think of were Samus hands on me, all over me and inside of me.

Clearing my throat quickly, I tried to smile at him. “Maybe later, I really wanna check in and fresh up first.”

He nodded immediately, bending over in the direction of the receptionist’s pc.

“Which room is yours?” he asked. “I got 507 with Raul, Sami is in 509.”

“510.” The young lady behind the table smiled at him. “Opposite side on the corridor, next to 508, Haber and Ikonen.”

Feeling a stupid little tingle in my stomach from only hearing his name, I smiled at the receptionist before I turned back at Riku that was still standing far too close and rubbed my back.

“Know what, I’ll fresh up, say hello to the rest of the lads and be back with you for an early lunch.” I heard myself say, hoping that Samu and I would at least have a few minutes for intense catching up.

He returned my smile and nodded. 

“Alright then, most probably the rest of the guys are still asleep, we had a tiny celebration last night and I think it got a little out of hand.” Winking at me, he pointed at the restaurant to his left. “Fresh up and come back, alright? I’ll be waiting for you.”

“Will do.” I returned his smile, quickly making my way over to the elevators with my key-card in my hand. Time to give a certain someone a pleasant wake-up-call.

Still smiling I walked along the corridor on the fifth floor. Checking my own room would have to wait. Excitedly I rearranged my hair a little, knocking at the door of number 508.

It took a few knocks and quite some time before it opened and to my surprise it wasn’t Samu but a blond girl with messy hair.

“Yes?” she mumbled sleepily, running her fingers over her face.

I was completely taken aback. “I… I was looking for Samu.” I managed to say after a few seconds of total shock.

She sighed, opening the door for me and I followed her like a sleepwalker. What a mess! The whole room was full of bottles, clothes, empty bags of crisps and other garbage.

“Anyone seen Samu?” the blond girl asked loudly, making a few more heads lift from couches and pillows.

“He’s been here only a few minutes ago.” Another girl sat up on the bed, waking two of her friends that were still asleep next to her on the king-size mattress.

“Maybe he’s having a shower.” One of the girls on the couch pointed at the bathroom door where I heard water running. “Tamea went inside, maybe he joined her.”

Chapter 10 - Where does Timetraveling take you?

Chapter 10

I didn’t tell anyone about me and Samu, not even Anna. It was far too fresh to describe it, talk about it or label it. First I had to find out for myself, where it was heading. 

To my disappointment it was Riku that kept texting me. Samu was indeed not the lovey-dovey kind of guy and with a heavy heart, I tried to accept that. Of course he called from time to time and whenever I heard his voice I felt butterflies in my stomach. We even spent a few hours with good telephone sex, making me realize just how much I wanted him to do all the things we told each other about secretly while I was listening to him masturbating on the other end of the line.

Anna was completely down for over two weeks. Every now and then she stepped by and slept over because she felt so lonely. To my surprise she came by one evening at the end of June while I was packing my stuff for our upcoming vacation with the band, simply to tell me that she wouldn’t come.

I put down the new underwear I had bought for my stay in Samu’s bed, beckoning her over to sit on my couch. 

“What are you saying?” I asked her. “You have been devastated and waited for the time to pass by so you could be with Sami again!”

Anna snorted but it didn’t sound happy. “Ah, well, it was a crush!” she tried to downplay it. “Think about it, where will this go? Is there a future for me and Sami? I don’t think so!” she paused, looking at me questioningly. “You’ve had a good time with Riku, he really likes you, and Samu, well, you could have him too, I guess. For me, well… it would hurt too much to see him again. We had this very special night, but I need a man that is close by. I need someone to share my life. And to Sami I will most probably be nothing more than a little fling.” Suddenly a little smile crept over her lips. “But I might have found the right guy for me a few days ago.” She suddenly stated, making me raise my eyebrows.

“You think so?”

“Yeah, I’m pretty sure. Tom is a very nice guy. Very decent, good looking, stable job.” She shrugged happily. “I think that he could be the one for me.”

Too shocked to even respond, I simply stared at her.

Tom.

So Tom arsehole had somehow found his way into her life anyway. I gritted my teeth, trying to force my brain to come up with an idea to prevent her from going through hell with this cheating, unreliable fly-by-night-bastard again.

Hadn’t it all been set out perfectly in this part of reality? I had prevented Anna from going to the party she had met Tom arsehole in the first place and now it seemed that the universe was laughing right into my face and sent that bastard anyway.

Maybe there was no way to cheat, no way to trick the universe into another direction. Would I end up with Riku, because I was meant to be with him?

I wasn’t sure how far Samu was committed, but I myself still felt pretty strong about him. I didn’t want to go back, didn’t want to have my life with Riku any longer. Breathing heavily I lowered my head, staring down at my hands. This was all so confusing! Was destiny now knocking at our door? Well, was it kicking my ass for believing that I could change my future by making different choices?

Trying to gather myself I looked up at Anna again, that was bending forward in my direction with a concerned look on her face.

“Are you alright?” she asked carefully, running her fingers over my cheek.

I nodded, still not sure how to breathe properly.

“Listen, love.” I managed to enunciate after a few seconds. “Listen, I… I don’t wanna go there alone, I need you!” with a pleading gaze I pulled her closer. “You need to help me with my own decisions, do I want Riku or Samu? I can’t go there without you, I’m going insane! Just join me, have a few days with me and the lads, maybe Sami is the better choice for you after all. Just give it a try, I know that he would do a lot for you, he really likes you and he was totally shattered when you suddenly stopped returning his calls. Leave this Tom-guy be, Sami is one of the nicest guys I ever met, and if you can’t join me there to be with him, do it for me! I really need your support!”

Surprised Anna tilted her head. 

“Sure, I… yeah, I could come and…” she stuttered, her eyes scrutinizing my face. “So you are in heart-troubles because of the two of them?” she asked astounded. “Why didn’t you say something? Are you… are you in contact with both of them? Jeez, I was so wrapped up in myself for the last weeks, I didn’t even ask you!” a little guilt ridden she moved closer to give me a tight hug. “Riku should be the one for you, Elena. Samu is a temptation, of course, but from a guy like that you’ll get nothing more than a good shag. He’ll be cheating on you. From what Riku told us the other night, he is not capable of keeping it in his pants, you don’t want that.” She rubbed my back, and I suddenly felt the urge to tell her that I was by now far too involved with Samu to even consider leaving the idea of a life with him behind. That I had most probably lost my heart already. Looking at her with a pleading look, I cuddled closer. “Will you come?”

“Of course I will.” She sounded confident all of a sudden. “Tom will be here when I return, the ticket is paid for and you definitely need a little hand with your love-decisions.” Smiling she rubbed my back again. “I’ll be home packing, are you in the mood to have dinner with me later?”

I nodded immediately. Anything to keep her away from Tom. “Thanks, Anna.” I kissed her cheek.

“Anytime!” she smiled happily and got up. “I’ll be back around seven, alright?”

“Perfect.” Sighing relieved, I rested my back into the cushions. As soon as the door closed behind her, I took my mobile and dialled Samus number.

“I’m all packed for tomorrow.” I said when he picked up. “What are you up to?”

“Not much. What are you wearing?” he answered, making me sit up straight.

“Riku?” I asked carefully.

He chuckled.

“Yep. Samu is taking a shower, but I saw your name and picked up.”

A little out of words, I tried to come up with an excuse or at least a topic to talk about. “I just talked to Anna, she’s gonna join me. Can you tell Sami, I don’t have his number.”

“Sure thing, he’ll be pleased. It has been pretty rough on him that she almost ghosted him.”

“I can imagine. She’s scared and a little insecure, you know?” tucking up my legs, I started playing with my toenails. “She always wanted to have her man close by and start a family. That is more or less impossible with a member of Sunrise Avenue.”

Before he could answer, I heard Samu’s voice. 

“Is that my phone, Rajamaa?” he sounded harsh. “What on earth do you think you’re doing?”

“It’s Elena!” Riku gave back provocativly. “We’re just chatting a little.”

“Gimme that!” There was low rustling, then Samu cleared his throat. “Hey. Little chat with Rajamaa, hum?” he still sounded angry and also a little offended.

“Hey.” I managed to say, feeling the speed of my heart increasing.

He didn’t respond and it almost made me bite my nails.

“I’m packing.” Damn, I sounded squeaky.

“Are you.” He only grumbled back and I fell silent again.

“Alright, so, bye then.” I forced the words out of my, by now close to tears. Why was he so grumpy? I had merely spoke to Riku before and I was sure that he was aware of the fact that his bandmate had also been texting me for the last two weeks and that we had been on the phone from time to time.

“Elena?” his voice was very low and I suddenly heard the sound of a closing door.

I waited for him to continue, not sure what to say.

All of a sudden he sighed. “Damn you.” He mumbled and I stopped pacing up and down my living room in surprise. Damn me? For what? My mouth opened, but he sighed again before I could say something.

“I wanna break his neck for texting you all the time.” Samu suddenly stated. “I hope he doesn’t get the pictures I get from you to keep me warm at night?”

Totally speechless I furrowed my brows, feeling a load taken off my mind. So Mr. Unapproachable was at least a bit jealous if not lovey-dovey.

“I bought some nice underwear and I will bring my heels, they seem to match.” I said instead of answering his question. “Are you naked?”

“Right now I am. And I will be for the whole next week with my dick somewhere inside of you.” He chuckled lowly and sighed again. “Counting the hours.”

“14 until my plane takes off, 16 until I see you, hopefully not more than 17 to wrap my legs around you again.” I responded spontaneously, making him chuckle again.

“Damn you.” He whispered once more, but this time I heard the smile in his deep voice. “You won’t be able to sit for the whole week, I will make sure about that. If you agree to be mine, you’ll have to be mine completely. And if little Rajamaa-fuck will as much as look at you the wrong may, I will break his neck.” Exhaling loudly, he cleared his throat. “And now I have a boner, only because I am thinking about you. Damn you, woman!”

“You want me to help you with that?” I asked seductively but he only chuckled.

“Not with Rajamaa sitting outside.” He sighed. “I’ll call you tonight, alright? Be naked and tell me a little story, will you? Otherwise I will not be able to last more than ten seconds in 17 hours.”

Laughing along with him, I sat down on my couch again. 

“God, I miss you.” I whispered, making him groan.

“Trust me, I really hate you for what you’re doing to me, woman.”

“Talk later?”

“Please.”

Chuckling I smacked a kiss over to him. “17 hours, Samu.”

“17. Can’t wait.”

With that he hung up on me and I felt a shiver. 16 hours, 47 Minutes to go.